Tag Archives: Sisters

missing her

10 Jul

I’ve been in a funk. A missing my mom more than my heart can take funk. She loved the 4th of July and starting on the 3rd my heart began to ache. Badly. 

My mind can’t wrap around the fact that it has almost been 18 months. Almost a year and a half without her.

I don’t cry every day or even every week anymore, but I have cried every single day for the past week. I woke up this morning remembering the morning she went in for her first surgery. My sister spent the night at home with me the night before and we stayed up until probably 4 in the morning talking, watching movies, doing laundry… we just couldn’t sleep. My sisters and I walked down to surgery with my mom and I tried really hard to not cry, but I couldn’t help it. My mom held my hand, looked up at the doctor and said, “This is my baby”. 

I just miss her.

friday letters

29 Jun

Dear really nice lady that helped me yesterday, Thank you. I really can’t say enough how grateful I am you knew I wasn’t okay and helped even when others wouldn’t. I appreciate you.

Dear Suzanne Collins, You wrote really, really great books! I just finished re-reading Catching Fire and wish I had Mockingjay with me right now. 

Dear people that keep talking about the heat, Please, just stop. I get it okay. The vast majority of you have some kind of cooler home to go to… I do not. (But huge thanks to Erin for offering to let me stay at your house last night!)

Dear popsicles, I. Love. You!

Dear WEEKEND! Hi, I’ve missed you! I’m ready to celebrate you every way possible! Just as soon as I get my dentist appointment out of the way.

Dear SarahCatherine, I CANNOT wait to see you! I really wasn’t joking when I said I might just pack up and come visit you one of these weekends. 

Dear boyfriend, Thanks for a really fantastic date on Wednesday. I love you!

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Movie in the Park tonight with my seeester and all her boys 🙂

Soccer game watching with my girlfriends tomorrow afternoon!

Date night with my boo tomorrow night 😉

NADA on Sunday! 😀

It should be a good one!

xoxo, S

5 things i learned over the weekend

26 Jun

1. Less is more.

2. It rocks that I have 2 sisters. Not just one, but two. It makes the moments I miss my mom easier – they know what I’m talking about.

3. Ordering cheesecake (with strawberries – duh) to come out at the same time as dinner can be the best decision ever. I also learned that it’s okay to eat the cheesecake and drink wine instead of eating my actual dinner. 

4. Random I love you phone calls can turn my whole day around.

5. Reading for hours instead of cleaning my apartment is perfectly fine.

Honorable mention… This is what happens to mini cupcakes when you put them in front of me and the boyfriend when we are hungry and an hour away from dinner…

good hair day

21 Jun

 Last week I was over at my sisters house and we were having a casual conversation when I started crying. Out of the blue. We were sitting at the table with Paul, so I didn’t want to draw too much attention to it (although, if you are ever crying he gives you lots of hugs and tells you you’re wonderful). I briefly told her why and then knowing I was trying to cover up my random and somewhat out of nowhere tears she told me I was having a good hair day. I could tell she meant it and wasn’t just saying it to get me to stop. In that moment it was exactly what I needed to snap out of what was going on. Sometimes all I want is that all consuming mom hug (you know the one), and sometimes it’s nice to just be told you’re having a good hair day.

She’s kind of the best.

P.S. I put two pictures because well, I can. AND because the top one cracks me up. She looks stinkin adorable and I’m all leaning over the bench, shoving her head over I’m so excited to be in a picture with muh seeester.

weekend update and summer!

20 Jun

Thankfully everything on Friday went really well and it turns out that I did get my dads genes because there was virtually no pain (except for a couple hours that first night), no bruising, no vomiting, no adverse reactions to any meds. Woo hoo! I wasn’t able to eat almost anything until yesterday so I’ve felt continuously nauseous from taking meds on an empty stomach. 

I spent my weekend watching a LOT of The West Wing (aka: the best show in the history of shows), reading, crocheting, and taking 4 hour naps everyday. My sister, her husband, and their kiddos had flowers delivered within an hour of getting home from the dentist, which was absolutely lovely 🙂 By Monday night I was sick and tired of being in my apartment so I brought a book to the lake and enjoyed some of the most perfect weather.

Thanks to Erin for all the spoiling on Friday!

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In other news…

IT’S SUMMER!

Here’s to beach days, margaritas, and sun dresses!

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i don’t exactly have the coolest weekend plans…

15 Jun

Happy Weekend

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I’m pretty sure my weekend won’t be as beautiful and relaxing as yours considering I’m having a wisdom tooth taken out this afternoon. Thankfully my sister will be helping me out today and Corey finally comes home tomorrow. I plan to eat lots of ice cream with both of them. My dad is convinced I’ll be “pleasantly surprised” at how simple and relatively pain-free it is.

I PRAY I got his genes. 

friday letters

8 Jun

Dear Best Friend, Happy National Best Friend Day!!

Dear weekend, THANK YOU for finally showing up. It feels like forever since we’ve been together.

Dear iPhone, I appreciate you. You allow me to stay somewhat connected to the outside world even though I don’t have internet at home. Plus, you have that cool app that tracks my sleep cycles.

Dear summer, you’re here!

Dear SarahCatherine, One year!!

Dear People that say “literally”, Please, I beg you, learn when to say it. You didn’t literally sleep for 127 hours, you slept for 9.

Dear future puppy, It’s killing me that I can’t come get you now. Right now. But when I do we’re going to have the best time cuddling together and watching the Bachelorette. No doubt. Plus, I already have a friend for you to play with. He’s nice, you’ll like him.

Dear new apartment, I love you!!… Even with your squeaky floors, closet-less bedroom, and that trombone player that lives downstairs. I love coming home to you and unpacking another box and cooking in the kitchen. I seriously LOVE cooking in that kitchen.

Dear boyfriend, Because I have so much more space to work with in my kitchen I’ll be baking more. Prepare yourself. Do what you gotta do.

Dear running shoes, I’m sorry I haven’t used you for running in a long time. I promise I’ll get back to running as soon as I feel more settled and unpacked. Soon!

Dear sisters, I’m SO glad we rotated the DVDs. I’m loving watching my set!!

Happy weekend!!