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missing her

10 Jul

I’ve been in a funk. A missing my mom more than my heart can take funk. She loved the 4th of July and starting on the 3rd my heart began to ache. Badly. 

My mind can’t wrap around the fact that it has almost been 18 months. Almost a year and a half without her.

I don’t cry every day or even every week anymore, but I have cried every single day for the past week. I woke up this morning remembering the morning she went in for her first surgery. My sister spent the night at home with me the night before and we stayed up until probably 4 in the morning talking, watching movies, doing laundry… we just couldn’t sleep. My sisters and I walked down to surgery with my mom and I tried really hard to not cry, but I couldn’t help it. My mom held my hand, looked up at the doctor and said, “This is my baby”. 

I just miss her.